Rows of ashen clouds rolled over Cape Cod like lines of soldiers marching from battle, the remains of a furious storm that pounded the shore long into the night. Wind still bullied the trees, combing the long field grass in the yard before whistling through the cracks in the window caulking chilling the small bedroom.
Dennis opened his eyes to blurry images around the tiny bedroom. It had been a fitful sleep, clouded with shadows and music from funeral marches. Even unable to focus without his glasses he knew each of the furnishings and articles by heart. In his mind they stood out clearly, etched deeply in his memory. The faded black and white wedding picture atop the bureau had been in the same spot for fifty-one years. In it he appeared stern, tie clamping his neck like a vise. He vividly recalled the pinching and chafing of his prominent Adam’s apple. Thick, curly brown hair was matted like a hat about his long face. Ellen said his eyes betrayed his fear. He was certainly nervous but fear was not an emotion he felt on his wedding day. On the contrary, it had been one of the happiest days of his life. He couldn’t help it if his expressions weren’t always connected to his heart. Though he had the appearance of a bookkeeper, his tall athletic body belied that notion. True to form, his lips, thin as potato peels, held a hard line.
Ellen turned her head on the pillow and gazed at him. She’d been up for hours. Though she smiled, he recognized the anguish in her blue eyes as he slipped on his glasses. Nodding slowly with a slight smile, he reached under the blankets and gave her limp arm a careful squeeze. She had always been his strength, his energy. It was even evident in the wedding photo, her stance, sure and steady, announcing to the world that the pairing was the right thing. Though a foot shorter than he she seemed to support his lanky body. Her broad face beamed with a bright smile and eyes shined with quiet, but obvious confidence.
He proposed to her on a scalding day on the New Jersey shore. Windblown and sunburned he knelt over her trying to ignore the butterflies banging in his stomach. Even after five years he wasn’t sure if she would accept, though both were thirty years old. As the question limped over his tongue she watched the flight of a lone gull. Children’s cries echoed off the calm water and bathers went about their business. His question hung in the salty breeze and he blushed as he waited, irritated at himself because his timing seemed wrong. She was distracted by the bird, interested in its proud display of freedom and power. He should have recognized that but he became anxious, throat dry and tongue swollen, fearful he might back out if he didn’t jump on the chance. After years of planning and practicing, he panicked. Her inquisitive gaze, eyes darting after the flight of the gull, conveyed her independence, the strength he would never corral. His admiration for her strength was what drove his love for her.
She heard his dull inflection and stiff delivery which lacked creativity and originality and hesitated for a moment, deciding she should make him pay for the pitiful performance. After all those years she deserved better, she really did. But in the end it was the content that was most important, not the tone of the delivery. What was she, a dog? Still, right before she accepted she thought it would be hilarious to say, “I’m sorry. What did you say? I wasn’t paying attention,” but knew he might never gather the nerve again. They had been stuck in neutral for years and had to throw the vehicle into drive so they could get on with their lives.
When she finally said, “Yes,” he missed it. He followed her gaze and caught up with the seagull in flight, admiring both of their quests for freedom and began manufacturing a mask to cover his devastation, a ruse that would allow him to walk away with his head held high – protect his pride.
This would be comical if it wasn’t so important and overdue, she thought as she watched his gaze – his light blue eyes, already bordered with crow’s feet, following the gull. She knew exactly what he was doing. While she still had the chance, before he decided on his exit strategy and retreated for good, she shifted onto her knees, the sun-drenched blanket warm on her joints and reiterated, “I said yes, you know.”
He took a double take, digesting her words and was so relieved he forgot to smile, express his excitement; though he never, for one moment throughout all the years forgot the exhilaration of that moment. Besides the birth of their children and the actual wedding, it ranked as the most important event in his life and whenever he felt deflated he drifted back to that hot day in the sand and could recreate the sounds, the smells and the sights that surrounded his euphoria.
“Morning,” she whispered faintly.
He leaned over her and kissed her lightly, their lips like sandpaper brushing across each other, then rearranged her thick curls on the pillow. Once jet-black, they were now heavily streaked with gray. He shifted onto his elbow, bones creaking as he leaned over her. She had shrunk, her head hardly evident on the pillow, her body just a small crease under the comforter. “It looks like the storm passed.” The old house had shaken and quaked in the fierce wind. Rain drove like nails against the window through much of the night. The trees groaned as their branches yielded and sprung back, while small twigs were swiped off and thrown unmercifully against the house. “You’d think I would get use to storms like that, let them follow their course without worrying,” he sighed, head bent down in surrender.
Her blue eyes twinkled like pools of water. She responded by blinking. The storms had the same effect on her.
Crawling to his side of the bed and sitting up, his feet smacked the cold wood floor. Feeling the tightness in his lower back, he stretched his right arm behind his head and leaned as hard as he could to the left, waiting for the tightness to subside and provide him full movement. Then he did the same with his left arm. His knees cracked when he stood and walked around to the stainless pot that caught the flow from her catheter. Stooping down, he gazed at the picture of the family posed before their small sailboat. Even though the picture was black and white their tans and sun-bleached hair leapt from it. After a passerby took the picture, he had taken his son Bobby out on the boat while Ellen remained ashore with their daughter Penny.
Bobby’s bony rib cage struck out with playful pride, ever the protector of his sister, while demure Penny leaned against him. Their windswept hair signaled their lack of vanity, their youthful innocence. It was the only picture he could remember in which he smiled broadly – a reflection of his own pride. Taken when Bobby was ten and Penny five, it was a constant reminder of the fickle temperament of the forces over which he had no control.
He lifted the pot, balancing it carefully so not to spill its contents. The bleach-like odor was a result of the mixture of drugs she took four times a day. Her bladder, because of the catheter, had grown weak and pretty much useless, just like the rest of her muscles, but at least it wasn’t causing her pain. After emptying the pot in the toilet and washing it out, he asked, “Hungry?”
She shook her head in the pillow. “Thirsty, though. Need my meds too.”
He nodded and walked to the kitchen past the dining room. The maple table held piles of newspapers and magazines – none of which he’d looked at – always promising himself he’d catch up on them but the layer of dust was evidence of his failure to do so. The table had become a repository – a staging area for waste.
“You have to leave it be,” Ellen gasped, staring strongly across the table at him, slamming her fork on the table, tears welling in her eyes. “It is over,” she insisted, glancing at Penny, then a teenager, who gazed blankly at her untouched dinner. “We are helpless to do anything about it now. We have to move on.”
Dennis knew better than to argue. He couldn’t recall ever winning one in their married life. He shrugged, wiping his own tears. He looked at the empty chair, then at his wife and daughter, his jaw quivering. Despite his need to talk about it, he would respect her wishes.
She’d been bedridden for 8 months, suffering from crippling rheumatoid arthritis that had all but paralyzed her. Only the painkillers made life bearable. He winced as he recalled her energy and curiosity for life. He rarely left her alone – only when Penny came by to check in on them did he feel it all right to be out of hearing distance.
The kitchen needed straightening. Actually it needed cleaning. He had never been very attentive to housekeeping chores. The only domestic talent on which he prided himself was baking apple pies, with apples picked from a small orchard at the end of the yard. He hadn’t done that for years, not since the children were young. Even back then, he took grief for not cleaning up after himself. Somehow he used his focus and energy on the creative process and was too tired afterwards to clean. Actually, he thought the pedestrian task of cleaning beneath him. Tall stacks of dirty dishes by the sink reminded him he hadn’t done them for days. He hadn’t swept the floor in over a week. It didn’t really bother him. They hadn’t entertained friends in years. Basically there was no one left to entertain. All the friends of their youth had either left the area or died.
Penny continued to berate him for his slovenliness, but he actually looked forward to it, because he had turned it into a game. It was too quiet in the house. When it pulsed with the overbearing and never ending noise of four people continually expressing opposing opinions, he never thought for a moment that he would rue the day when silence reigned. He never thought he would miss the arguments and miss them so much he started them whenever Penny arrived. The only argument he hated was the one about them moving into a nursing home. It had become Ellen’s favorite subject. Penny also joined in, constantly harping on the subject, but she was his child, and he found ignoring her simple, though his silence usually threw her into a tirade about how he never listened to her, had never respected her. A slight smile came to his thin lips when he thought about her diatribes.
She always had a habit of making bad decisions, and though he wished it wasn’t the case, he never hesitated to remind her, and felt strongly that it was the only way to teach her the proper way to make a decision. If she couldn’t understand that after all these years, whose fault was it? Though he would only admit it to himself, these arguments were a defense mechanism in hopes of drawing his family’s attention away from their favorite subject – putting him in some damn nursing home.
Reaching for a clean glass in the cupboard he knocked a dirty one with his elbow, sending it careening off the counter across the floor where it shattered against the wall into a hundred tiny pieces. He watched with a dazed smile as the shards of glass spun vibrantly like dancing drunks before wobbling to a halt.
“Dennis!” Ellen called. “Are you all right?”
“Damn,” he whispered. Then he called out, “I’m fine! Stupid glass jumped right off the counter. If Penny doesn’t get here soon to do the dishes….” She was due later that morning. He smiled to himself, knowing full well how that would irritate Ellen. He picked his moments of sarcasm with Ellen carefully, understanding her condition could only withstand so many and he didn’t want to wear her out.
“Did you clean it up?” she asked as he came back into the bedroom with a glass of water and her pills.
“Penny will get it when she gets here.”
“It’s not fair to expect her to have to take care of us,” Ellen argued.
“What’s wrong with her taking care of us? She’s our child.”
“With plenty of responsibilities of her own and certainly not enough time to dote on us. If you can’t sweep up a broken glass…”
“Don’t you dare bring it up again!” he growled, anticipating her direction. “I’m not doing it. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of us. Hell, if you hadn’t spoiled me all these years I’d be cleaning up in there, alleviating all the pitfalls. But because you were so insistent on taking care of me, I now lack the training.” His eyes twinkled as he grinned mischievously, rubbing his hands together.
“Jesus,” she sighed, futilely trying to hide her amusement by turning her head from him.
“Didn’t think it would come to this, when you were washing all those dishes over the years, did you?”
She shut her eyes and shook her head. “I didn’t think I’d end up chained to a damn bed, either.” Her amusement vanished and she puckered her lips.
“But, that’s not your fault.” Her tone smothered his impish joy and a cloud of seriousness washed across his face.
“No. And neither are our old age and my need for the care that you can no longer provide.” She stopped and looked directly at him, fully aware her words would hurt his pride.
His features grew hard, cheeks flexing and chin sticking out defensively. Feeling self pity, ignoring the accuracy of her statements, he fell silent while he gently slipped the pills into her mouth, lifting her head under his arm, tilting her chin, and holding the glass of water so she could sip, before dabbing her lips with a napkin.
“You know I didn’t mean it that way,” she sighed, familiar with his childish, self- centered behavior and how he loved to use it as a guilt provoking tool. She was too weak to argue for long periods, even though she knew it inspired him in some strange way.
He looked away and mumbled, “I can handle the situation. I always have.” It had been his regular response over the past year. It had become a signal to stop the discussion. When he first recited it, he had no doubt about its validity, but lately even he had begun questioning his abilities, the weakness in his legs, the shortness of breath and most of all, the forgetfulness. The statement had taken on a dual purpose – the second a reminder to him to ignore his own weaknesses in hopes they would miraculously disappear and he would grow stronger.
“What happens if something happens to you? I can’t call Penny. I can’t even reach a phone.”
He scowled at her. “I don’t want you talking like that. Nothing is gonna happen to me. I’m fit as hell.” He avoided her gaze and looked out the window.
“We never know. I was fit too.”
He shook his head and ran his hand through his thinning hair. “I can’t, damn it! We both know that once were in, it’s a death sentence, the last day of freedom. Might as well stick me in the ground.”
“But it’s a nice place.”
“According to Penny, but what does she know? She’s not the one going to jail.”
Tall pines lined the road like sentries in front of her parent’s house. When Penny was having a good day she took delight in their whimsical beauty; the way the branches swayed gracefully in the breeze. It reminded her of her youth. When she was struggling with her life she recognized their strength and tried to draw from it. Ever since she was a child she had seen them as a symbol of her parents.
She was in the midst of a string of good days. Her oldest daughter Sherry had called that morning just to bring her up to date on her own three daughters. Of all her children, Sherry was most like Penny - a strong, nurturing individual who wasn’t afraid to tackle a problem. Penny used to be that type of person.
Sitting in the driveway, she wondered how she had become a parent with whom her kids visited only periodically. She was no longer a major part of their lives – hardly more than a footnote, or number three or maybe even six on their to-do lists. The other two called every so often, more often than not when they needed something or needed to complain to someone. As much as she missed having them living locally, she refused to harp on it and always put up a strong front while speaking to them. Complaining about it would only drive them further away, both figuratively and physically.
She adjusted the rearview mirror and checked her makeup. It had become a habit in high school when her father complained her makeup made her look like a whore. “Looks like you’re wearing three coats of enamel,” he commented as she prepared for her first date with Paul, her future husband. It was his way of telling her she was too young to date. Her mother was her protector, a vicious defender who would drop everything to race to her side during the constant arguments with her father.
“Maybe I have to because I look more like you than Mom,” she screamed, severely hurt by his attack, but also just as angry because her tears meant she had to wash her face and apply the makeup all over again. After the third cycle of attacks and face washing, Paul was at the door and she had to go out with a scrubbed, tear blotched face. It was a wonder he showed up for a second date.
After the divorce, Dennis gloated rather than offer support. “You were too damn young for marriage. Besides I never could see anything in him.” He never explained his comments, just made them, fully expecting everyone to understand him, and accept whatever he said as gospel.
She sat in the car building up her strength before going into see them. Turning up the volume on the radio, letting the easy jazz soothe her, she leaned her head back and closed her eyes, attempting to shut out the world, at least to delay the inevitable when she walked through the door. The small Cape Cod house, white with green shutters, was her childhood home. She had the second bedroom on the first floor and Bobby slept in the attic. He had an advantage, the rule of the roost; able to shut himself away when their father became angry, leaving her an unprotected target for his cruel verbal attacks. The structure was too small and cramped and all too often her memories were of the screaming matches between father and Bobby, Bobby and herself, and Father and her echoing abrasively throughout the tiny rooms. The only positive constant was Mother as the mediator, the protector.
The tension was still evident, even though the causes were different, and her visits rarely went smoothly. Even if she felt good going in, some outburst from her father would ensue and she would leave feeling terribly sorry for her mother and even sorrier for herself. She had become their parent, taking on the role of enforcer, though admittedly, not an entirely effective one.
Her last visit had been a disaster. She made it a habit to follow a set routine upon her arrival - give her mother a kiss, make sure she was as comfortable as she could be, considering her condition, grunt a greeting to her father, then march right into the kitchen and clean up the mess he always left. He loved seeing her in the kitchen and never failed to watch her.
The routine usually went swimmingly and she was even able to ignore his irritating presence, but after washing the dishes during the last visit, while drying them, he whistled from the doorway. “Kind of losing your speed, aren’t ya, kiddo?”
It was a playful barb. She realized that, but he had the knack of stabbing at the wrong time, (or right time, depending upon his intention), and she flung the towel at him. He straightened abruptly, shocked at the action, anger oozing from his cool blue eyes because he took it as a sign of disrespect.
“No, Dad! It’s you who is getting slower. Look at this mess,” she cried, feeling the tears well in her eyes as her throat closed. She hated crying when she became angry, knowing he considered it a sign of weakness. “What self-respecting adult would leave a crap house like this?” Unlike his barb, there was no humor, not even sarcasm in her tone – only bitterness. She was tired of being his verbal punching bag. “What right do you have to constantly downgrade me? All I’ve ever tried to do is help!”
That was the end of the conversation. The look on his haggard face was a mixture of astonishment and agony, but he just bit his lip and limped away, leaving Penny alone in the kitchen, guilt ridden midst the echoes of her assault and dreading having to face her mother after such an attack.
“You can’t cut it off like this! Not again!” Ellen cried, tears welling. “I’m not giving in anymore. Yesterday you dropped a plate on the way in here. Today, you break a glass in the kitchen. What the hell is going to happen tomorrow? What if the house caught fire? How could you get me out?” She was grasping for any excuse, the more extreme the better, because she realized, even if he didn’t, each of these disasters could happen any time. They were defenseless.
Trying to ignore her while pulling on a pair of gray flannels, he yanked the belt to the last hole, bunching the waistband into an accordion of folds. He glanced in the mirror and saw a three-day stubble, but refused to worry about it as he once would have because no one was around to witness it. Besides, it was much sparser than it used to be.
“I’ll tell you one thing that isn’t happening today or tomorrow, and that’s us moving into a damn home!” With a frustrated wave of his hand he stomped out of the room and on his way outside, slammed the door, making sure it resounded like the crack of a rifle shot.
“Dennis! You get back here!”
“Who the hell does she think she is?” he muttered as he marched across the backyard. Chest pounding, hands trembling, he tasted blood as he bit his lip in an attempt to control himself.
White billowy clouds had replaced the storm clouds and they rode high on a warm breeze. Blue jays chattered and chased each other through the bushes. Their words replayed in his mind and he bounced between self-pity and anger. Her loss of confidence in him was plain to see, but what was more aggravating was the stark realization he might be losing his own.
“I see he’s been up to his old tricks again,” Penny remarked as she entered the tiny bedroom after cleaning the kitchen.
“You mean the glass in the kitchen?” Ellen sighed.
“Breaking it is one thing, but why does he always leave the mess for me to clean?”
She sat on the edge of the bed by her mother’s feet. It was a place she’d been occupying since she was a child. She recalled the slippery coolness of the silk comforter on winter mornings when she crept in to wake them, the invigorating chill seeping through the window they kept open at night.
“Why does he do anything he does? He’s so damn stubborn I could kill him.”
“Don’t. Then there’d be a long trial, and transporting you back and forth to the courthouse would be just too much of a burden.” Penny smiled and winked. “Have you had your meds?”
“He gave them to me.”
“One thing he’s good for.”
“I don’t know if that’s enough to keep him around, though. I guess the piss bowl would over flow without him. If you add that to occasionally changing my diaper, the few times that’s needed, I still don’t know if it’s enough.”
“Tough morning, huh?”
“I was pretty tough on him. His ego is a bit bruised.”
“Ah, the sweet smell of revenge.”
“I suppose it was the retirement home thing again.”
“We’ve been retired for years. We’re in need of nursing now.”
“Not Dad. He needs nothing. Just ask him. Never has needed anything from anyone.”
Ellen grew serious. “Penny, he needs both of us and you know it.”
Penny frowned. “He needed Bobby. I’m not so sure he needs me.”
“Father and son. It’s not unusual.”
Penny stood up and stretched. She suddenly felt tired. Repetition of the same argument wore her to the point of exhaustion. She needed some breakthrough in her life. “I’m just so damn sick of the attacks, the constant degradation.”
“Unfortunate as they are, it seems our burden to bear.”
“He would never treat Bobby the way he treats me.”
“He did. You just refuse to remember. That is his way. I married him too damn late. He was set in his ways and I couldn’t soften him. He’s always been a strict, stubborn bastard who thinks his way is the only way.”
“Merciless is a better description. Whenever Bobby got in trouble, he’d escape upstairs after the screaming match and I would get the remaining brunt of his anger. I never did anything, but was a convenient target just because I lived here. I didn’t choose him as a father!”
“He loves you. Strictness is just one way of showing it, one way of protecting you.”
“Strictness is one thing, but sarcastic and hurtful attacking is entirely different. What upsets me most is the fact I’m expected to accept him the way he is when he’s always trying to change me.”
“He never tried to change you. He just expresses his opinions openly. Never once did he stop you from doing what you wanted. He just warned you. He told you what he thought, but he never stopped you and never loved you less when you went ahead and did it.”
“And he’d be the first to remind me of his wisdom when it didn’t work out. Just loved to rub the salt into my deep wounds, and if they weren’t deep enough he’d dig them deeper.”
“Often times too tough, but just another expression of his opinion.”
“He was your husband, not his. Just because he may not have liked him didn’t mean you couldn’t. He always felt it was his right as his father to let you know what was on his mind. Actually, he felt it was his responsibility to make sure you saw everything, understood everything.”
Tears welled in Penny’s eyes. “Why the hell did he have to be so right all the time?”
Wiping her tears, Penny asked, “Where is the old coot, anyway?”
Ellen turned to the clock. “God! It’s been an hour since he stomped out of here. You better go look for him.”
The back of the property was lined with a row of crooked apple trees crumpled like arthritic hands. The bright red apples beckoned to him. It had been years since he made an apple pie.
Scurrying back to the garage, he grabbed a basket and hobbled to the brink of a deep ditch that separated him from the trees. He wound up, grimacing as he tossed it across to the foot of the trees, bringing on tightness in his shoulder and a new ping in his lower back. At one time he thought nothing of rearing back and leaping the width of the ditch, but suddenly, standing there peering into its rocky mouth, he found it difficult to believe he’d accomplished it so easily. A coat of sweat engulfed him as he imagined the flight. His heartbeat quickened as he took a few steps back and started for the edge, knees cracking, calves tightening over cramping ankles. Two steps into the approach he was winded. Airborne, arms flapping wildly, he knew he’d leapt too soon. It was as though he were weighted down. He braced himself for the worst as he lost momentum immediately and fell short. Legs crumbling beneath him as he met the far side with a jarring force, he reeled back. Twirling around him were glimpses of trees followed by flashes of thick white clouds as he tumbled dizzily backwards into the ditch. The intensity with which he landed knocked the wind from him and shot a mesmerizing jolt of pain from his lower back up his spine into his head where an explosion of colors knocked him unconscious.
“Dad! Where are you?” Penny called as she wandered down the path, peering into bushes and around trees. The panic brought a grating tightness in her stomach as she tried to dispel harrowing images of his corpse and the following pain and suffering they would have to endure.
“Over here.” The shrillness of his voice surprised both of them and embarrassed him.
“Oh my God!” she cried as she crouched down, peering into the ditch. “Are you all right? Can you move? What are you doing here?” The sight of his crumpled body shocked her.
“Don’t ask,” he groaned. The ease with which she reached him, then held him, made him realize how old and out of control he'd become. Her concern was that of a mother for a child.
He did a mental inventory. Besides shortness of breath he seemed intact. “Nothing, it seems. I just kinda ran out of steam in mid-air.”
Effortlessly she had him on his feet. He was brittle and paper thin. Wrapped in her arms, he laid his head against her breast. When had she grown taller? As she rocked him, he gulped a sob.
“Can you walk back?”
He pulled back and stared at her for a moment. Her features were Ellen’s, especially the brightness of her eyes, the strength of her jaw. “Would you help me to the beach?”
“To the beach? Are you out of your mind? Is that where you were headed when this happened?” She held him steady, astonished by the malleability of his frame. “What about Mom?”
He shook his head. “She’ll be napping. Please. I need to go there.”
“You wait here and I’ll go tell her what we’re doing.”
The craggy sea grass glowed purple in the cloudy light. She reached around and supported him as they struggled up the dune; the wet sand slippery and dangerous as he limped along, determined to reach the peak. The sea still raged from the storm. Leaning on each other, they struggled to catch their breath at the top of the dune. Against the wind, they gazed out at the whitecaps. The air was wet with salt and he smiled as it coated his face.
“It’s the only thing I can count on to remain the same,” he murmured. Surveying the horizon, he inhaled deeply. “It’s so overwhelming. So perfect.” Even in its angry state, sand and water churning with frightening force, its beauty and energy were awe-inspiring.
The billowy clouds raced inland across wide swatches of blue sky.
He pointed to a large whitecap. “That’s mine. You pick one.”
“Over there!” she laughed. It was a game they had played when she was a child. Follow the whitecap to shore. Bobby’s wave always won.
The excitement and anxiety brought a blush to her cheeks as she urged her wave on to victory. She screamed and danced over the sand, waving her arms wildly. “I finally won!”
He clapped. The wild panorama was no different than forty years earlier when he scaled the dune with the telegram in hand. The sea’s roar masked his anguished screams. Bobby’s ship had gone down in a storm off the coast of Viet Nam. He had left the table with Ellen holding Penny. All were paralyzed with grief.
He slipped his arm around her waist. “I shouldn’t have let him enlist,” he admitted solemnly. “He still had another year before he had to go.”
She squared his shoulders, turning him to her and peered into his tired eyes. His age screamed in the layers of wrinkles around them, and she finally recognized the toll life had taken on him. “You can’t blame yourself.”
“It was the only time in my life I held back. Didn’t express my feelings.”
“He wouldn’t have listened, Dad.”
He shook his head and wiped a tear. “I suppose not. No one around here ever has. But I could’ve withheld my signature on the papers.”
“He would have forged it and run away.”
He smiled sadly as he gazed at the horizon. “Seems stubbornness is a family trait.”
“Not a particularly good one, but at least it is something we all have in common.”
Dusk’s shadows crept slowly across the bedroom. Taking Ellen’s hand in his, he smiled down at her. She gazed at him, her blue eyes, though nestled in webs of wrinkles, showed the vibrancy of a young woman.
“You’re right. It’s time for us to move,” he whispered. There was no reason to go into all the details.
She knew better than to ask why he had changed his mind after all this time, but she could finally stop worrying about him, knowing he would be in a safe place, knowing Penny wouldn’t be burdened by him.
Smiling and shutting her eyes, she was back on the beach by the boat where Bobby took her hand.